The Stamp Collector

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When I was younger, I was somewhat of a stamp collector.

This picture  illustrates perfectly the way in which  I used to lay out my albums, and I recognise many of the stamps as ones that I had in my own collection.

The stamps would keep me busy for hours, and I used to let my imagination take me on all sorts of adventures.

I had a very precise method in the way that I went about my collection too.

Firstly, I would buy a bag filled with stamps from around the world, still attached to the corners of torn envelopes.

Instead of just cutting them off the envelopes, I used to soak them in water so that I could peel them back to their original state, laying them out on a tea towel to dry. 

From there, I would sort them by size, image and colour,  placing them into the plastic lined rows of my albums.

Quite often the stamps that came in these packets would be the same, but I still pored over each one, looking closely at each post mark, and wondering of the story behind it.

What letter was inside the envelope that this particular stamp was attached to? 

If it was one of Queen Elizabeth II, where in England was the stamp sent from, and to whom? 

I used to look up my Reader’s Digest Atlas Of The World, mapping out routes,  never quite able to believe that each of these stamps from such far away places was now inside my album in a small country town in Australia!

Letters fascinated me, and I used to love our daily trips to the post office.

Each time we would go to collect the mail, the postmaster would pull out all the marked envelopes from the alphabetical pigeon hole under the first letter of our name. 

She was very deliberate in her manner, and I remember the  way she would lick her index finger before commencing her precise flick, flick, flick through the pile.

There was no doubting that she took her role very seriously, and I couldn’t imagine a better job in the whole wide world.

I would spend hours at home playing ‘post office’. 

Just as with my stamp collecting, this too was a lengthy process. 

Firstly, I would cut up paper to make my envelopes, then I would look in my atlas, choosing place names, then making up surnames and addresses to match.

Once I’d made all of my letters, it was time to sort them alphabetically, and then of course practice my own flick, flick, flick through the pile as I imagined each person coming along to collect their mail from me.

What imaginative games do you remember most from your childhood?  Did you ever collect anything? (I also had a large souvenir spoon and eraser collection)

An Unlikely Bond

          

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Tonight, I again made the journey that I spoke of six months ago.

It is a 90 minute car ride that takes me back over my entire life, and stirs emotions in me that I only ever feel or release on this trip.

The place it takes me to holds significance to not only myself, but my Mum, who spent her own childhood there, and I in turn spent a great part of mine, as we would visit from the country on most weekends.

And it is 17 years now since I started seeing this man whom I now solely make the trip for, with no other want or reason to venture in this direction.

Back then, I was just a young girl of 17 myself, recently having moved to the city to begin my career in the media monitoring industry.

And this man I saw tonight, he too was young then, in his early 20′s, freshly graduated from university.

I was one of his first ever patients.

We have an unlikely, but nevertheless strong bond, having shared many significant events and parts of our lives with one another over the years.

Back in our younger days, we would talk of our plans and dreams for the future.

We would discuss everything from politics, religion, music, news, current affairs, right through to the more personal details of our own lives and relationships.

Now, our conversations are very much focused on our own families – his three young sons, and of course my Miss A.

Tonight was a little more emotional than usual. 

He spoke of the recent passing of his Mother, and the impact he has felt from this as he looks at his own young sons. 

I was touched by what he shared with me tonight, and I in turn told him how hard it is for me to venture back into these surroundings with all the memories that are attached, and that I do it only because of him.

He listened, as he always does, though often it is he who does most of the talking.

Perhaps it’s a good thing, he said.

The fact that I do keep making this journey, knowing and facing all that it brings, perhaps it is helping me move forward without even realising it.

And tonight I realised it’s true, that this trip was indeed easier than the last.

He is a wise man, and a very kind soul.

He is also my dentist.

Have you formed any unlikely bonds in your life?

Baggage Limit

 

This week, I had to take a trip into my past.

Physically, mentally and emotionally.

 In one case, it meant driving an hour from where I live for an appointment in a suburb very familiar to me as a child.

 A place where I spent many weekends and school holidays visiting family, and  attending various celebrations.

Sadly, amongst the nice memories, there were many more of tense, anxious, upsetting confrontations and heated discussions. 

Of silence and words unspoken, along with many tears shed in hurt, frustration and anger.

And then closer to home, I had to sort through paperwork, looking at documents, records, and the occasional photo of a life that I can’t recall without a knot in my stomach and a lump in my throat. 

It still surprises me that from time to time a memory can be triggered that takes me back to a place that I don’t wish to recall, and stir such an immediate emotional reaction in me.

But I know that I am lucky.

As I drove back home, I left all of those stirred emotions right there behind me.

When I found the documents I was looking for, I taped up the box containing that strange and former life, and put it far away out of sight.

And then I looked at Miss A.

One smile from her was all I needed to reassure me that everything was okay.

That as cliched as it sounds, everything does happen for a reason.

And I would go through all of it again in a heartbeat to get to where I am right now.

A mixture of motherhood, happiness and contentment, all rolled into one.